The start of 2018 has been a slow one for me - like trying to get out of bed after a night of twelve tequila shots and binge eating two burritos, slow. With every new year comes the pressure to start strong right out of the gate with fitness goals and resolutions in tow. But let’s be real, who actually makes (and sticks with) those resolutions throughout the year?
I have been feeling particularly uninspired recently, hence the creative rut on the blog and Instagram. I tried EVERYTHING, from engaging you guys on social media, to shooting new things, but nothing really helped kickstart my creativity. Finally, back in November, I was fed up. I was constantly tired, extremely unmotivated, and felt like I never had the energy to do anything. After getting some tests done and seeing a specialist, I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and Hypothyroid (more on this later).
I was relieved to find out what the hell was going on with my body, but it also was a really shitty feeling to know I didn't get to have full control of my body anymore. I think I internalized all of this over past couple of months and it has slowly manifested into this sluggish beginning to 2018. Since PCOS and Hypothyroid aren’t life threatening, I never felt that I had the right to fully accept that these diseases were going to be something that I would have to deal with for the rest of my life.
After this realization, I have started to accept and move forward. Instead of putting so much pressure on myself (and what I literally cannot control or fix), I really want to do what feels genuine and fulfilling for myself and hopefully that translates into everything else that I do! Other people, followers, family aside, it’s so important to do what makes you feel good. It's OKAY to not feel great, it’s OKAY to not stick to resolutions, and it’s OKAY to be selfish. At the end of the day, you (and your health) are what matters most - the rest will follow.
Focus more on self care this year, and doing things that make you FEEL GOOD. Forget the expectation that we have to have it all together when January 1 hits, that's overrated. This next series of posts are going to be centered around good things and good vibes. It's time to get out of this rut! First off - my favorite "feel good" essentials when I'm not feeling the best. xx Carly